Well, I just bought Soul Calibur IV the other day. Brought it home, played it, loved it(character creation mostly:D, got 8 so far). I was thinking about having a friend over so we could play it together, maybe make a goofy character or two, and do some unofficial co-op(tag team ability=pausing and giving controller to person next to you,lol). Then, it struck. Last Friday, my 360 started acting up a bit. The colors starting going out of whack. Then, Saturday morning, I get a sign. A symbol, that could only be divined by the gods, NO, its like a pentagram, scary shit. Microsoft could have put a pentagram on there and it would have been just as bad.
Anyways, I'm shipping it off tommorow(getting a box together and getting all the shipping labels ready). Good thing is, I'm in warranty, YAY. Other good thing, it's free for them to fix(not like that time with Nintendo with my Gamecube, "It'll be free for the service, but we're going to charge you $75 shipping", even when I was in warranty<.<). Another good thing, FREE 1 month of Xbox Live if they take too long. Mine has been down for a little while, and I was thinking of getting 1 month to tie me over for the online of the Soul Calibur IV, since that was as long as I was expecting it to be satisfying, before delving back into the single player experience.
Well, I hope when I ship it off, it goes to a Microsoft establishment near me(please, not Washington, I live in Indiana<.<). That means I could get it back in less than the 2 weeks they mentioned. If it gets back real early, I won't mind not getting the free month of Xbox Live, especially since I wanna play some before school starts(gotta take some online classes, and maybe some college ones this year, and that's pretty damn stressful).
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
Time to lay out some goals...(since I have no one reading these,lol)
I decided since I have practically no views, I'm gonna just say some stuff about what I plan to do on this blog. I want to go out there by saying, I'm saying what I want to say. In otherwords, I'm not telling myself,"well, that would look stupid if I put that up", I'm putting up my thoughts. Secondly, I think I'll connect this blog to the one I have on Gametrailers.com, maybe get a few people to see this here.
Monday, June 16, 2008
Outraged at IGN
I just finished watching a review by IGN for the game Eternal Sonata, and I'm pissed. They gave little attention to the game, and wrote it off as an "above average RPG". I was writing a response to it, but I found it was getting to long, and thought I'd just go to my blog(here) and post my thoughts. This is unedited of what I meant to put on there, so it may seem like it's directed elsewhere or even like it wasn't thought through very much, cause I did it in 20 minutes(from beginning to end of thinking on how to write it).
DO NOT LET THE IGN REVIEW CHANGE YOUR DECISION ON WHETHER OR NOT TO TRY THIS GAME, I don't care if you like it or not, just please find another Review from another source before you make the decision.
(Long response, only in terms to give a critique of this review, pointing out in great detail it's faults. Call me biased if you want, but I respect this game for more than the "this is fun to play" aspect that most reviewers do, I see everything it has to offer, and highlight that).
"I don't really like IGN because they tend to be biased in views much more than other sources(example, the other day I was looking at their 2007 awards, and Call of Duty 4 one best graphics, and better looking games like DMC4 were disqualified because it was 2008, but another award went to Burnout:Paradise City, which was released this year...), and this review was bullshit.
1. Story doesn't spiral, it's controlled from beginning to end extremely well, because they do it with subtlety(controlling your feelings about the very first scene until you see it again, which is Polka jumping off a cliff)
2.If the game didn't preach the moral value factor to you, it wouldn't deserve to have Chopin in it. Chopin was a man who hit you with sounds of emotion and meaning in life, not just a catchy tune.
3. Dungeons are too short, wow, they must have looked at the first few levels(even though they said they played it through and have video late in), and said that's what we'll gauge it by. It's not anywhere near Tales of Symphonia short, yet not near PSO in length(dear god those were long). Pirate Ship Dolce, Double Reed Tower, Xylophone Tower, Lento Cemetery, Sharp Mountains and more fit the bill if they wanna look back and correct themselves.
4.Tri-Crescendo does the best damn job out there at making a linear game look wonderful. They used that static camera view to capture the level design, which is amazing by the way, so those who have seen many an RPG before will know something different is there, something blessed. In games with camera controls, you only spend a couple seconds looking at something when you first get there, but then lose interest into the gameplay, and so there is no need to control and change the camera just to look at something. In this game, they allow for you to experience at your liesure, or even while you are in a speed run. In the Woodblock Groves for example, the camera allows every player, not just those with the time to control it if they could, to see the lovely disc shape to the paths that allows for an overlapping effect,crossing over the paths with a jump command to allow it to easily be integrated. You never have to pull your camera up to see all this as it fits as a whole, you can always see it.
5.The voice acting above average...not true. First off, you have an allstar(voice actor-wise) cast of people who know how to get the job done, some of the best of the best, like Liam O'brien, Cam Clarke(Liquid Snake from MGS), Johnny Yong Bosch(Nero from DMC4), Megan Hollingshead, Patrick Seitz, and even in the japanese version you have amazing voice actors. Second off, they perform well, not counting their previous fame. They space and give time in the midst of phrases not out of a bad job of not saying a line as fast, but to give it a feel of thought. And their diction is just amazing. This is also in the lesser criticised role they do, the battle voices. While everyone's ears are on them in cinematics, they aren't so focused like that while playing in a fight. Yet even without that attention, they pull it off stuningly.
6.Not being a fan of JRPG will not,I REPEAT,will not keep you from this one. Unlike most Japanese RPG's, this game has very,VERY little visible influence that it is from Japan. There are no Japanese names for characters or moves, the music is cultural of the era of Chopin and the music surrounds the feel of the environment and his sector of the world(Classic European feeling), there are no environments in vein of Japanese design, and there is almost no connection to Japanese design when it comes to characters either. This game is neutral to the possible audiences it might capture. PLEASE,don't be afraid to try it out if you don't think you'll like it because of Japanese origins.
7.This game was meant to be played fast through, but many times. Encore mode(new game+) gives new goals to be achieved and a harder difficulty, as would be expected. But the pace of the game allows you to start a new file and get to the really good parts quickly, like maybe the introduction of a favorite character or good moves.
So, there you have it, my thoughts on this so-so review. There's more I could put, but if you are thinking about playing this game, find a better reviewer before you rent/buy it. IGN didn't get the point across too well."
Someday further into the future, I may post my own review of the game on this blog(although I'm long winded[see my second post here to understand why,hehe], so it will probably be long.
Here's the link to where I first saw the vid.
http://www.veoh.com/videos/v6327687dEAXk6fN?rank=7&jsonParams=%7B%22numResults%22%3A20%2C%22rlmin%22%3A0%2C%22query%22%3A%22eternal+sonata%22%2C%22rlmax%22%3Anull%2C%22veohOnly%22%3Atrue%2C%22order%22%3A%22default%22%2C%22range%22%3A%22a%22%2C%22sId%22%3A%225993010445143212032%22%7D&searchId=5993010445143212032&rank=8#comments
DO NOT LET THE IGN REVIEW CHANGE YOUR DECISION ON WHETHER OR NOT TO TRY THIS GAME, I don't care if you like it or not, just please find another Review from another source before you make the decision.
(Long response, only in terms to give a critique of this review, pointing out in great detail it's faults. Call me biased if you want, but I respect this game for more than the "this is fun to play" aspect that most reviewers do, I see everything it has to offer, and highlight that).
"I don't really like IGN because they tend to be biased in views much more than other sources(example, the other day I was looking at their 2007 awards, and Call of Duty 4 one best graphics, and better looking games like DMC4 were disqualified because it was 2008, but another award went to Burnout:Paradise City, which was released this year...), and this review was bullshit.
1. Story doesn't spiral, it's controlled from beginning to end extremely well, because they do it with subtlety(controlling your feelings about the very first scene until you see it again, which is Polka jumping off a cliff)
2.If the game didn't preach the moral value factor to you, it wouldn't deserve to have Chopin in it. Chopin was a man who hit you with sounds of emotion and meaning in life, not just a catchy tune.
3. Dungeons are too short, wow, they must have looked at the first few levels(even though they said they played it through and have video late in), and said that's what we'll gauge it by. It's not anywhere near Tales of Symphonia short, yet not near PSO in length(dear god those were long). Pirate Ship Dolce, Double Reed Tower, Xylophone Tower, Lento Cemetery, Sharp Mountains and more fit the bill if they wanna look back and correct themselves.
4.Tri-Crescendo does the best damn job out there at making a linear game look wonderful. They used that static camera view to capture the level design, which is amazing by the way, so those who have seen many an RPG before will know something different is there, something blessed. In games with camera controls, you only spend a couple seconds looking at something when you first get there, but then lose interest into the gameplay, and so there is no need to control and change the camera just to look at something. In this game, they allow for you to experience at your liesure, or even while you are in a speed run. In the Woodblock Groves for example, the camera allows every player, not just those with the time to control it if they could, to see the lovely disc shape to the paths that allows for an overlapping effect,crossing over the paths with a jump command to allow it to easily be integrated. You never have to pull your camera up to see all this as it fits as a whole, you can always see it.
5.The voice acting above average...not true. First off, you have an allstar(voice actor-wise) cast of people who know how to get the job done, some of the best of the best, like Liam O'brien, Cam Clarke(Liquid Snake from MGS), Johnny Yong Bosch(Nero from DMC4), Megan Hollingshead, Patrick Seitz, and even in the japanese version you have amazing voice actors. Second off, they perform well, not counting their previous fame. They space and give time in the midst of phrases not out of a bad job of not saying a line as fast, but to give it a feel of thought. And their diction is just amazing. This is also in the lesser criticised role they do, the battle voices. While everyone's ears are on them in cinematics, they aren't so focused like that while playing in a fight. Yet even without that attention, they pull it off stuningly.
6.Not being a fan of JRPG will not,I REPEAT,will not keep you from this one. Unlike most Japanese RPG's, this game has very,VERY little visible influence that it is from Japan. There are no Japanese names for characters or moves, the music is cultural of the era of Chopin and the music surrounds the feel of the environment and his sector of the world(Classic European feeling), there are no environments in vein of Japanese design, and there is almost no connection to Japanese design when it comes to characters either. This game is neutral to the possible audiences it might capture. PLEASE,don't be afraid to try it out if you don't think you'll like it because of Japanese origins.
7.This game was meant to be played fast through, but many times. Encore mode(new game+) gives new goals to be achieved and a harder difficulty, as would be expected. But the pace of the game allows you to start a new file and get to the really good parts quickly, like maybe the introduction of a favorite character or good moves.
So, there you have it, my thoughts on this so-so review. There's more I could put, but if you are thinking about playing this game, find a better reviewer before you rent/buy it. IGN didn't get the point across too well."
Someday further into the future, I may post my own review of the game on this blog(although I'm long winded[see my second post here to understand why,hehe], so it will probably be long.
Here's the link to where I first saw the vid.
http://www.veoh.com/videos/v6327687dEAXk6fN?rank=7&jsonParams=%7B%22numResults%22%3A20%2C%22rlmin%22%3A0%2C%22query%22%3A%22eternal+sonata%22%2C%22rlmax%22%3Anull%2C%22veohOnly%22%3Atrue%2C%22order%22%3A%22default%22%2C%22range%22%3A%22a%22%2C%22sId%22%3A%225993010445143212032%22%7D&searchId=5993010445143212032&rank=8#comments
Monday, June 2, 2008
Virgin Media Just Doesn't Get It
I normally wouldn't talk of these kind of things unless they really bothered me, but living where I do, I got broadband internet only a bit over a year ago. This news is something that could revert most of my web browsing back to what I just came from. So I WILL fight for it.
As many internet users know, Virgin Media announced they are planning to cancel net neutrality for their users. In otherwords, websites that don't pay money to Virgin will lose the ability to be visited at normal speeds, causing them to lose viewers because they are slow. If you like a site other than youtube for your video watching purposes, and youtube pays and the other doesn't, youtube will be viewable and your site will be impractical. Virgin has been saying at some places they are just going to speed up the paying sites and leaving the non-payer sites normal, but they are actually going to bring their speed down to around that of dial-up. Speed isn't just a luxury on the internet you can do without. This makes it virtually impossible for some websites that stream quality material that requires a good connection(beyond video or online programming), setting a standard that will need to be met.
This all means one thing for the users, downgrading. It is just as bad as if they wanted to say that all users will now have to pay $15 more monthly just to have their internet connection. And if Virgin Media succeeds without resistance, they will encourage other ISPs to do it too. Companies other than Virgin have talked about this for years, never acting on it, waiting for someone else to go out and do it, so it will happen if Virgin greenlights the idea. If this happens, it will pick up momentum and become something the community accepts, even though it shouldn't have to. This is similar to the way gas prices rise. These companies are abusing our desire for the internet to earn money off of our needs. No one complains about stopping gas prices rising, they just grumble and carry on, because it is something that would be hard to achieve. This however, is easier to boycott and destroy.
IF Virgin pulls this off somehow, I am going to bet they will lose many of their clients, and if those clients go, the sites that pay them will lose their viewers too, pulling on Virgin the way it should. So, this is not a matter of waiting for some group to stand out and protect internet rights, it is a matter of the users. There is no group that regulates the internet rights, WE have to do it. Don't sit around like a non-voter, thinking their vote won't count. You aren't the only one who thinks that way if you do.
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As many internet users know, Virgin Media announced they are planning to cancel net neutrality for their users. In otherwords, websites that don't pay money to Virgin will lose the ability to be visited at normal speeds, causing them to lose viewers because they are slow. If you like a site other than youtube for your video watching purposes, and youtube pays and the other doesn't, youtube will be viewable and your site will be impractical. Virgin has been saying at some places they are just going to speed up the paying sites and leaving the non-payer sites normal, but they are actually going to bring their speed down to around that of dial-up. Speed isn't just a luxury on the internet you can do without. This makes it virtually impossible for some websites that stream quality material that requires a good connection(beyond video or online programming), setting a standard that will need to be met.
This all means one thing for the users, downgrading. It is just as bad as if they wanted to say that all users will now have to pay $15 more monthly just to have their internet connection. And if Virgin Media succeeds without resistance, they will encourage other ISPs to do it too. Companies other than Virgin have talked about this for years, never acting on it, waiting for someone else to go out and do it, so it will happen if Virgin greenlights the idea. If this happens, it will pick up momentum and become something the community accepts, even though it shouldn't have to. This is similar to the way gas prices rise. These companies are abusing our desire for the internet to earn money off of our needs. No one complains about stopping gas prices rising, they just grumble and carry on, because it is something that would be hard to achieve. This however, is easier to boycott and destroy.
IF Virgin pulls this off somehow, I am going to bet they will lose many of their clients, and if those clients go, the sites that pay them will lose their viewers too, pulling on Virgin the way it should. So, this is not a matter of waiting for some group to stand out and protect internet rights, it is a matter of the users. There is no group that regulates the internet rights, WE have to do it. Don't sit around like a non-voter, thinking their vote won't count. You aren't the only one who thinks that way if you do.
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Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Long Time No Post
It's been a while since I've posted, and it still seems I have practically no one reading my posts anyways, so it doesn't really matter.
Just wanted to report on things for anyone who could care. I got done with this school year, by the skin of my teeth(good grades,bad attendence due to sickness), and by the looks of it, next year may be an all online school-year. This will lead to me getting time to do college classes early and by some odd law, almost for free. So, yipee to online schooling. Yipee to shorter school hours. Yipee to my own schedule.
Also, got a Devil May Cry 4 for my 360, and it is an awesome game. I would say, probably about a 9.2 out of 10. If it had more replayability other than just working to get S-Ranks on everything and more rewards to match that, it would be a 10 out of 10, because it already has the formula, gameplay, graphics, and story.
In other news about things I think are good, I watched an anime series recently called "Ergo Proxy" and I have to say, it has become my all time favorite anime. It has a slow story start, yet it doesn't. It's the subtle details it throws at you in the beginning then revealing some of what those were, then introducing more subtle details to keep back the tide of boredom to the intellectual viewers. By the end of the 23 episode series, all the subtle details come clear, just in time to help with the climax. This is a dramatic and sometimes very dark(emotionally) show that involves a plot and characters you clearly care for, and hidden philosophy you didn't know you liked. Topped off with a fresher look on sci-fi(not your average android vs. human story as it first appears) and the best ENGLISH voice acting I've ever heard in an anime. The main character's voice actors are 5 stars, but even the extras and smaller characters have at least a 4 star aura. Liam O'brien(Illidan Stormrage-WoW) voices the male lead(my favorite voice actor), Megan Hollingshead voices the female lead Re-l Mayer, and Travis Willingham(Roy Mustang-FMA) voices Re-l's personal Entourage(secretary style android).
I also have been watching more videos from Phillyd.tv, one of my favorite online thinkers. He speaks out with a scent of humor to catch your attention, but keeps a sarcastic, yet surprisingly true tone on things in news today. He isn't a celeb basher or any of the more mainstream types, but speaks more on all subjects that are in the news(from the politics to the celebs, to the gadgets to the world news). Though a sarcastic review is what you expect from him everytime you turn his vids on, you get more than you bargained for, getting a dose of some critical thinking material occasionally). I would definitely recommend checking him out for almost everyone(Warning-some of his comments will make you think he's racist at times, but he just doesn't like the way he keeps encountering people who abuse their race as a wall to prevent them from getting hit by the law and the real world, which is usually the things he talks about when speaking on race).
And last but not least, check out http://www.rewards1.com/index.php?referrer_id=99881 , it is one of those rare real deal survey websites, and you can ask for pretty much anything that's on EBay or Amazon, as long as it's appropriate(no guns, or adult material, or paintball, etc.).
That's all I have to say for now, hope to get some people to read.
Just wanted to report on things for anyone who could care. I got done with this school year, by the skin of my teeth(good grades,bad attendence due to sickness), and by the looks of it, next year may be an all online school-year. This will lead to me getting time to do college classes early and by some odd law, almost for free. So, yipee to online schooling. Yipee to shorter school hours. Yipee to my own schedule.
Also, got a Devil May Cry 4 for my 360, and it is an awesome game. I would say, probably about a 9.2 out of 10. If it had more replayability other than just working to get S-Ranks on everything and more rewards to match that, it would be a 10 out of 10, because it already has the formula, gameplay, graphics, and story.
In other news about things I think are good, I watched an anime series recently called "Ergo Proxy" and I have to say, it has become my all time favorite anime. It has a slow story start, yet it doesn't. It's the subtle details it throws at you in the beginning then revealing some of what those were, then introducing more subtle details to keep back the tide of boredom to the intellectual viewers. By the end of the 23 episode series, all the subtle details come clear, just in time to help with the climax. This is a dramatic and sometimes very dark(emotionally) show that involves a plot and characters you clearly care for, and hidden philosophy you didn't know you liked. Topped off with a fresher look on sci-fi(not your average android vs. human story as it first appears) and the best ENGLISH voice acting I've ever heard in an anime. The main character's voice actors are 5 stars, but even the extras and smaller characters have at least a 4 star aura. Liam O'brien(Illidan Stormrage-WoW) voices the male lead(my favorite voice actor), Megan Hollingshead voices the female lead Re-l Mayer, and Travis Willingham(Roy Mustang-FMA) voices Re-l's personal Entourage(secretary style android).
I also have been watching more videos from Phillyd.tv, one of my favorite online thinkers. He speaks out with a scent of humor to catch your attention, but keeps a sarcastic, yet surprisingly true tone on things in news today. He isn't a celeb basher or any of the more mainstream types, but speaks more on all subjects that are in the news(from the politics to the celebs, to the gadgets to the world news). Though a sarcastic review is what you expect from him everytime you turn his vids on, you get more than you bargained for, getting a dose of some critical thinking material occasionally). I would definitely recommend checking him out for almost everyone(Warning-some of his comments will make you think he's racist at times, but he just doesn't like the way he keeps encountering people who abuse their race as a wall to prevent them from getting hit by the law and the real world, which is usually the things he talks about when speaking on race).
And last but not least, check out http://www.rewards1.com/index.php?referrer_id=99881 , it is one of those rare real deal survey websites, and you can ask for pretty much anything that's on EBay or Amazon, as long as it's appropriate(no guns, or adult material, or paintball, etc.).
That's all I have to say for now, hope to get some people to read.
Saturday, March 8, 2008
Formal Introduction(really,really long)
Well, I'm a High School student, so I may talk about some youthful things, yet I am also a grade A student so I have a word in on things like politics and economy. I'm a person who can give you a running debate on any presidential candidate or what I think of a specific government. I could also tell you what I think of girls at my age, what video games I'm playing, and what class out of my school day is my favorite.
Now,I still want to be open about my life, and yet not reveal much information, so... I will only use first names when talking about friends and officials. That way, I can at least have some breathing room when writing something. This leads me to my first order of business for this blog, a list of people I know, and a bit about them, so my future entries make sense.
Myself-I am very odd individual if you were to look at an average person's idea of a biography of me. When I was younger, I was really shy, I didn't even talk till I was four. I was even to shy to be really close to my Christian faith. In 3rd and 4th grade, I was made fun of and was bullied by many kids, and I kept in the pain it all caused me. It wasn't till about 5th grade that I started
to bloom, I was more open, had more friends and was becoming more vocal. This is also when
my entire grade was forced to due a spring play for music class. It was basically a medley of songs sung by kids with people moving around on stage to the music. I was assigned to be the groom in during the "Here Comes the Bride..." music. Even though I was cast across from a popular and pretty young girl named Amber, which should have been a nice thing, this also put me on the spotlight for ridicule by people who had already disliked me. I was made fun of as being a groom in many different ways at rehearsals, and I eventually got angry from all of this, and had so much stress I was unable to participate in the play.
This, is when my mother took me to a psychiatrist, Bob(a simple name, I know, but it flowed well with his last name). He observed me, and diagnosed me with Asperger's Syndrome, a condition in the shape and connectivity of my brain I had had since birth. It had cause my focus in interests and complex behaviors my parents never really noticed. They just thought I was your average smart-shy kid. It also causes misinterpretation of socialization, in otherwords, I didn't do so well in conversations and emotions early on.
This lead to my anger, anger spawned from not understanding why bad things could happen to me. Quickly, I considered myself one with an "anger problem" caused by some "disease". I had much hatred at this time towards God, blaming him for making me this way. I was right to blame him, but not in anger. I soon found, that this condition was the reason I was so smart, so witty, and so understanding of things beyond emotions. I learned, it is similar to that of Savants(from the movie Rain Man), in that I act in ways that are not normal to society, but in return, I am genius. Although nowhere near the level of Rain Man, I am quite intelligent. I am able to sit and look at art designs and show in my mind how the entire project was made from beginning to end in a split second. I can count at amazing speeds with my eyes. I can scan crowds for people I know in only seconds. I in turn, began to feel pride instead of hatred. But I don't like bragging about it in words. It feels foolish. I only like to show someone once how smart I am, and I normally can't do that since I'm not supernatural in my abilities, just pretty good.
In the years to follow, I had many angry outbursts in school, that caused me to get suspended twice. This might have lead to the school officials high up thinking I was some kind of monster, but others still tried to do what they could. Despite the normal routine of kicking a person who got in a fight or got angry and shouted at a teacher out of school, because I had a condition and was proven to be diagnosed with it, they couldn't do it so easily. The counselor and special education associates were there to stand by me. And so, I was given an aid, a person to follow me to my classes and sit in the back of the classroom. I could tell them whether or not something was really bothering me, and I was also given full permission to walk out of class without telling a teacher if I was on the verge of an outburst and needed to cool off. I was also given a bus to ride that carried autistic(known in older day slang as retarded) students or previous suspension students from multiple schools to and from home. I felt "okay" with God during all these years, and when an outburst happened I felt sporadically farther or closer to him.
In 8th grade, I was in Algebra class, while the substitute was watching as the class was taking turns doing presentations of a project we had. I turned to say something to a friend once at the beginning of one project. I turned back and continued watching it. Some boy's near me continued talking, while I stayed silent. One of the girls presenting was deaf, so she always had an interpreter who followed her around to tell her the lessons and lectures in class in sign language. Who that person was wasn't always sure, she may sometimes need a substitute signer. On this day, she had a young, fresh out of college signer, with a snide countenance. Minutes later, near the end of her project, the boys near me got loud enough the sub had to ask them to stop. When the project was finished, the signer stood up and said she was disappointed in the class's behavior, and said she was especially disappointed in me, for she thought I was the loudest.
All of the sudden, multiple things went off in my head, as all the students in the room looked at me. I thought, by the look on her face, she had lied, and now I was singled out. People lieing to me and me being similar to a scapegoat make me sick. I stood up, screamed at her, threw a pencil I had in my hand toward the back of the room, into a corner, and walked out.
Normally, that is an average outburst that I just feel bad about for a couple days, and toughen up and decide to get back to my life after a while. Hoping to try harder to make such an event not happen. Later that day, I find out the signer wants to report me and is hoping I get kicked out, for hitting her. For a second, my heart sank. But I thought, who is going to believe her. I saw her report(which, even the person who showed to me, said was filled with incorrect information) and it said that I had hit her with the pencil...which I to this day believe is a lie. She was at the side of the room, I was at the back, and the pencil went into a corner in the back. She kept claiming that it bounced back and hit her. But it didn't matter, that was enough for the higher-ups to have meetings with the rest of the staff as to whether or not I should be kicked out for good.
The staff and my family came into an agreement though, instead of being sent off to another school right away, I was aloud to come into school after hours and have a small class with a teacher of mine who was kind enough to stay after school to help.
After I finished that school year, I tried to have a nice, relaxing summer, to help me forget about my troubles. But the problem arose that my family and I needed to decide on what we were going to do. I was either going to have online schooling, or be transferred to another school in the area. The school I would be sent to was kind of like the place they sent everyone who they expelled, which made me think it was a place of little quality and was like punishment to me. Finally, the school year came, and I decided to try and go to the new school.
It was not monstrous, or evil like I thought it would be. It was rather different. When I got there, the staff was nice to me, I for once felt the higher ups liked me, the students were extremely quick to make friends with, and I was given a half day schedule to make things easier on me for my first year there.
Ever since, I have had a good time at this current school. I am now a Sophomore, and hope to keep getting good grades and pass everything no problem.
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My Family
My mother- kind woman, with a love for baking, movies of the late 30's through 60's, and murder mysteries. She isn't really to old, but she's already taken on a habit of forgetfulness and misunderstandings of things that go on around her like she is. But, if you looked at her, you'd think she was 10 years younger than she is(quite the opposite of me, I am always mistaken for being about 21 or so because of my height.
My father- I don't exactly want to say my father is distant from me. When I was 4, he drove school buses. When we moved, I was 5, and he got a job working late nights and was gone some of the time when I was home. He got promoted a couple times and eventually, I began to respect my dad for his transition from bus driver to a much higher caliber of job(not gonna mention it), but I always knew he had it in him, from the very beginning. When I was in 3rd grade, we moved back to the area we had first lived at because of so many yearns for my family and my relatives to be close again. Then we moved halfway back, so my dad could be closer to his job and we could have family near by, kind of a happy medium. This is where my father got his newest job, which he seems to love and it's hours allow me to see him more.
Through all of this though, his absence earlier on in my life didn't make him farther from me, I was a kind of person who could be fine without either of my parents for long times. Plus, he was always home on the weekends. The thing that still kept him distant, was throughout the weeks, even when he is home, he is simply distant because of his personality. He wasn't shy or unsociable, he was just involved with things that would sometimes make him kind of half-there, half-not.
My Brother- My elder brother, by 3 years, was once considered my polar opposite. I liked to stay inside, he liked to stay outside, I wasn't a very physical and sports-oriented person, he was(till later), I have OCD and like to keep things in order, he could care less, I am conscious of washing my hands, he lets them get covered in dirt or oil before he washes them. All in all, we have many things out of place and a few alike things. We both do well in school(I am the smartest), we are both of great height(I am the tallest though), and we have an occasional crossover of tastes in movies(the occasional action film and many comedies). We have gotten into many fights before, but it seems to mostly be verbal.
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My Friends
Dillon-My best friend, I've known him since 3rd grade. I met up with him a bit and talked to him about things during recess when I was younger, then I moved away and we got distant. I had almost forgot about him, when, at a fair in the area he lived in, I saw a relative of his, and the thought of him flooded to me. I asked if he was there, and luck would have it, he was. If it wasn't for that fair(which I hated the fair on its own), I wouldn't be sitting here talking about him. Hell, I may not be here at all. We have many things in common, he likes video games, knows the experience of having brothers, same age, we both like quality humor and action, and much more.
I am delighted to have him over to my house(we live an hour from each other) no matter what the costs. If I absolutely had to choose whether he lived and my mom died, or my mom lived and he died, I sadly would say my mother(she would understand too, Dillon and I are so close, I would die of depression if he died). I have spent more time talking to him than I have ever spent sitting around doing something with my dad or my brother, and they got almost an extra 10 years of time with me as a head start.
My friends at my school from grade 5 to 8- These were my friends I remember and care about the most. They consisted of almost all gamers, a slightly vulgar and funny one named Nick, a kind hearted one named Ryan, Twin brother Robert and Colt(Robert was my second best friend for a time, I haven't seen him in over a year I believe), and a couple others, including Josh(see below for more on him). We were kind of like a fellowship of students, we sat at the same lunch table every day, we hoped to have some of the same classes every year, and always tried to talk in the hallways when we had time. This was also when I started to have friends over to spend the night. I basically became the guy whose house would be where everyone came to for a sleepover-party(normally girls have that kind of thing, I know, but it works fine for us). There were even phases we all went through, from Nick's extreme perversion phase, to everyone playing Yu-Gi-Oh(which I still admire for having a good solid card battle system).
There were also some other friends. Up until about the end of my 6th grade, I was really shy. My friends at my lunch table must have made me more open. This is when I was able to become a friend to almost anyone in my grade, the athletics, the girl groups, and some other guys who were in their own little circle. A more malcontent kid named Dalton had his own group, and although I never really got along with him after my 6th grade(see below), I was able to become good friends with everyone around him.
Josh- an awkward, normally-misunderstood, person, I met Joshua in the second half of my 6th grade year. He had just moved from a state over, and before that, from the other side of the country. He was being duped into being friends with a couple of guys who had done the same to me. The majority of the group were okay guys, but the head was a complete fool named Dalton. He lived a life that seemed like he was sociable, and yet, he could be so cruel as to make you feel nonexistent when he stops socializing with you. Eventually, Josh drifted from them and I really met him. He had an interest in gaming to, and was emotionally similar to me. His father was a jolly fat man with an extreme sense of humor and prideless-ness(he wouldn't mind at all at me calling him jolly and fat, he would probably make me put it in a description of him). But he was also a religious youth group leader, so he had good morals and a clean personality. I continued to meet him and his father, and when I changed schools(not moved), his father insisted on being my class aid. A year later, he moved to the town where my current school is at, meaning his son and daughter would go to my school, and our friendship really sparked up again. I see Josh everyday at school, he always tells me about something he's really excited about when I first see him in the morning. I sit at a table with a group of friends he met at my this school, although I stay distant from them. It's not that I don't like them, I just feel content watching them socialize rather than joining in.
Joey- Joey is Josh's father, he is, as said earlier, a jolly, heavy-set man, with a funky past. His parents are both foreign, one Italian and one Venezuelan, so he jokes around about things with the way his parent's ethics are on occasion. He also will go into a big sentence completely in Spanish at a fast pace and then say, "I have no idea what I just said" for humor to people he hasn't met much of before. He is now my aid in school, and follows me around throughout my day. He is kind of like a friend to fall back on, to talk about right away when I need to, and to also have an opinion on the events I am experiencing since he is there most of the time. He takes me home in the afternoon since my bus driver is unable to make a shift out to my school at that time of the day, so I also get to have a car ride to chat with him about things. He is a devoted Christian, like myself, and has a few similar interests in things as me(only person on this list other than my family that doesn't play games).
Now,I still want to be open about my life, and yet not reveal much information, so... I will only use first names when talking about friends and officials. That way, I can at least have some breathing room when writing something. This leads me to my first order of business for this blog, a list of people I know, and a bit about them, so my future entries make sense.
Myself-I am very odd individual if you were to look at an average person's idea of a biography of me. When I was younger, I was really shy, I didn't even talk till I was four. I was even to shy to be really close to my Christian faith. In 3rd and 4th grade, I was made fun of and was bullied by many kids, and I kept in the pain it all caused me. It wasn't till about 5th grade that I started
to bloom, I was more open, had more friends and was becoming more vocal. This is also when
my entire grade was forced to due a spring play for music class. It was basically a medley of songs sung by kids with people moving around on stage to the music. I was assigned to be the groom in during the "Here Comes the Bride..." music. Even though I was cast across from a popular and pretty young girl named Amber, which should have been a nice thing, this also put me on the spotlight for ridicule by people who had already disliked me. I was made fun of as being a groom in many different ways at rehearsals, and I eventually got angry from all of this, and had so much stress I was unable to participate in the play.
This, is when my mother took me to a psychiatrist, Bob(a simple name, I know, but it flowed well with his last name). He observed me, and diagnosed me with Asperger's Syndrome, a condition in the shape and connectivity of my brain I had had since birth. It had cause my focus in interests and complex behaviors my parents never really noticed. They just thought I was your average smart-shy kid. It also causes misinterpretation of socialization, in otherwords, I didn't do so well in conversations and emotions early on.
This lead to my anger, anger spawned from not understanding why bad things could happen to me. Quickly, I considered myself one with an "anger problem" caused by some "disease". I had much hatred at this time towards God, blaming him for making me this way. I was right to blame him, but not in anger. I soon found, that this condition was the reason I was so smart, so witty, and so understanding of things beyond emotions. I learned, it is similar to that of Savants(from the movie Rain Man), in that I act in ways that are not normal to society, but in return, I am genius. Although nowhere near the level of Rain Man, I am quite intelligent. I am able to sit and look at art designs and show in my mind how the entire project was made from beginning to end in a split second. I can count at amazing speeds with my eyes. I can scan crowds for people I know in only seconds. I in turn, began to feel pride instead of hatred. But I don't like bragging about it in words. It feels foolish. I only like to show someone once how smart I am, and I normally can't do that since I'm not supernatural in my abilities, just pretty good.
In the years to follow, I had many angry outbursts in school, that caused me to get suspended twice. This might have lead to the school officials high up thinking I was some kind of monster, but others still tried to do what they could. Despite the normal routine of kicking a person who got in a fight or got angry and shouted at a teacher out of school, because I had a condition and was proven to be diagnosed with it, they couldn't do it so easily. The counselor and special education associates were there to stand by me. And so, I was given an aid, a person to follow me to my classes and sit in the back of the classroom. I could tell them whether or not something was really bothering me, and I was also given full permission to walk out of class without telling a teacher if I was on the verge of an outburst and needed to cool off. I was also given a bus to ride that carried autistic(known in older day slang as retarded) students or previous suspension students from multiple schools to and from home. I felt "okay" with God during all these years, and when an outburst happened I felt sporadically farther or closer to him.
In 8th grade, I was in Algebra class, while the substitute was watching as the class was taking turns doing presentations of a project we had. I turned to say something to a friend once at the beginning of one project. I turned back and continued watching it. Some boy's near me continued talking, while I stayed silent. One of the girls presenting was deaf, so she always had an interpreter who followed her around to tell her the lessons and lectures in class in sign language. Who that person was wasn't always sure, she may sometimes need a substitute signer. On this day, she had a young, fresh out of college signer, with a snide countenance. Minutes later, near the end of her project, the boys near me got loud enough the sub had to ask them to stop. When the project was finished, the signer stood up and said she was disappointed in the class's behavior, and said she was especially disappointed in me, for she thought I was the loudest.
All of the sudden, multiple things went off in my head, as all the students in the room looked at me. I thought, by the look on her face, she had lied, and now I was singled out. People lieing to me and me being similar to a scapegoat make me sick. I stood up, screamed at her, threw a pencil I had in my hand toward the back of the room, into a corner, and walked out.
Normally, that is an average outburst that I just feel bad about for a couple days, and toughen up and decide to get back to my life after a while. Hoping to try harder to make such an event not happen. Later that day, I find out the signer wants to report me and is hoping I get kicked out, for hitting her. For a second, my heart sank. But I thought, who is going to believe her. I saw her report(which, even the person who showed to me, said was filled with incorrect information) and it said that I had hit her with the pencil...which I to this day believe is a lie. She was at the side of the room, I was at the back, and the pencil went into a corner in the back. She kept claiming that it bounced back and hit her. But it didn't matter, that was enough for the higher-ups to have meetings with the rest of the staff as to whether or not I should be kicked out for good.
The staff and my family came into an agreement though, instead of being sent off to another school right away, I was aloud to come into school after hours and have a small class with a teacher of mine who was kind enough to stay after school to help.
After I finished that school year, I tried to have a nice, relaxing summer, to help me forget about my troubles. But the problem arose that my family and I needed to decide on what we were going to do. I was either going to have online schooling, or be transferred to another school in the area. The school I would be sent to was kind of like the place they sent everyone who they expelled, which made me think it was a place of little quality and was like punishment to me. Finally, the school year came, and I decided to try and go to the new school.
It was not monstrous, or evil like I thought it would be. It was rather different. When I got there, the staff was nice to me, I for once felt the higher ups liked me, the students were extremely quick to make friends with, and I was given a half day schedule to make things easier on me for my first year there.
Ever since, I have had a good time at this current school. I am now a Sophomore, and hope to keep getting good grades and pass everything no problem.
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My Family
My mother- kind woman, with a love for baking, movies of the late 30's through 60's, and murder mysteries. She isn't really to old, but she's already taken on a habit of forgetfulness and misunderstandings of things that go on around her like she is. But, if you looked at her, you'd think she was 10 years younger than she is(quite the opposite of me, I am always mistaken for being about 21 or so because of my height.
My father- I don't exactly want to say my father is distant from me. When I was 4, he drove school buses. When we moved, I was 5, and he got a job working late nights and was gone some of the time when I was home. He got promoted a couple times and eventually, I began to respect my dad for his transition from bus driver to a much higher caliber of job(not gonna mention it), but I always knew he had it in him, from the very beginning. When I was in 3rd grade, we moved back to the area we had first lived at because of so many yearns for my family and my relatives to be close again. Then we moved halfway back, so my dad could be closer to his job and we could have family near by, kind of a happy medium. This is where my father got his newest job, which he seems to love and it's hours allow me to see him more.
Through all of this though, his absence earlier on in my life didn't make him farther from me, I was a kind of person who could be fine without either of my parents for long times. Plus, he was always home on the weekends. The thing that still kept him distant, was throughout the weeks, even when he is home, he is simply distant because of his personality. He wasn't shy or unsociable, he was just involved with things that would sometimes make him kind of half-there, half-not.
My Brother- My elder brother, by 3 years, was once considered my polar opposite. I liked to stay inside, he liked to stay outside, I wasn't a very physical and sports-oriented person, he was(till later), I have OCD and like to keep things in order, he could care less, I am conscious of washing my hands, he lets them get covered in dirt or oil before he washes them. All in all, we have many things out of place and a few alike things. We both do well in school(I am the smartest), we are both of great height(I am the tallest though), and we have an occasional crossover of tastes in movies(the occasional action film and many comedies). We have gotten into many fights before, but it seems to mostly be verbal.
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My Friends
Dillon-My best friend, I've known him since 3rd grade. I met up with him a bit and talked to him about things during recess when I was younger, then I moved away and we got distant. I had almost forgot about him, when, at a fair in the area he lived in, I saw a relative of his, and the thought of him flooded to me. I asked if he was there, and luck would have it, he was. If it wasn't for that fair(which I hated the fair on its own), I wouldn't be sitting here talking about him. Hell, I may not be here at all. We have many things in common, he likes video games, knows the experience of having brothers, same age, we both like quality humor and action, and much more.
I am delighted to have him over to my house(we live an hour from each other) no matter what the costs. If I absolutely had to choose whether he lived and my mom died, or my mom lived and he died, I sadly would say my mother(she would understand too, Dillon and I are so close, I would die of depression if he died). I have spent more time talking to him than I have ever spent sitting around doing something with my dad or my brother, and they got almost an extra 10 years of time with me as a head start.
My friends at my school from grade 5 to 8- These were my friends I remember and care about the most. They consisted of almost all gamers, a slightly vulgar and funny one named Nick, a kind hearted one named Ryan, Twin brother Robert and Colt(Robert was my second best friend for a time, I haven't seen him in over a year I believe), and a couple others, including Josh(see below for more on him). We were kind of like a fellowship of students, we sat at the same lunch table every day, we hoped to have some of the same classes every year, and always tried to talk in the hallways when we had time. This was also when I started to have friends over to spend the night. I basically became the guy whose house would be where everyone came to for a sleepover-party(normally girls have that kind of thing, I know, but it works fine for us). There were even phases we all went through, from Nick's extreme perversion phase, to everyone playing Yu-Gi-Oh(which I still admire for having a good solid card battle system).
There were also some other friends. Up until about the end of my 6th grade, I was really shy. My friends at my lunch table must have made me more open. This is when I was able to become a friend to almost anyone in my grade, the athletics, the girl groups, and some other guys who were in their own little circle. A more malcontent kid named Dalton had his own group, and although I never really got along with him after my 6th grade(see below), I was able to become good friends with everyone around him.
Josh- an awkward, normally-misunderstood, person, I met Joshua in the second half of my 6th grade year. He had just moved from a state over, and before that, from the other side of the country. He was being duped into being friends with a couple of guys who had done the same to me. The majority of the group were okay guys, but the head was a complete fool named Dalton. He lived a life that seemed like he was sociable, and yet, he could be so cruel as to make you feel nonexistent when he stops socializing with you. Eventually, Josh drifted from them and I really met him. He had an interest in gaming to, and was emotionally similar to me. His father was a jolly fat man with an extreme sense of humor and prideless-ness(he wouldn't mind at all at me calling him jolly and fat, he would probably make me put it in a description of him). But he was also a religious youth group leader, so he had good morals and a clean personality. I continued to meet him and his father, and when I changed schools(not moved), his father insisted on being my class aid. A year later, he moved to the town where my current school is at, meaning his son and daughter would go to my school, and our friendship really sparked up again. I see Josh everyday at school, he always tells me about something he's really excited about when I first see him in the morning. I sit at a table with a group of friends he met at my this school, although I stay distant from them. It's not that I don't like them, I just feel content watching them socialize rather than joining in.
Joey- Joey is Josh's father, he is, as said earlier, a jolly, heavy-set man, with a funky past. His parents are both foreign, one Italian and one Venezuelan, so he jokes around about things with the way his parent's ethics are on occasion. He also will go into a big sentence completely in Spanish at a fast pace and then say, "I have no idea what I just said" for humor to people he hasn't met much of before. He is now my aid in school, and follows me around throughout my day. He is kind of like a friend to fall back on, to talk about right away when I need to, and to also have an opinion on the events I am experiencing since he is there most of the time. He takes me home in the afternoon since my bus driver is unable to make a shift out to my school at that time of the day, so I also get to have a car ride to chat with him about things. He is a devoted Christian, like myself, and has a few similar interests in things as me(only person on this list other than my family that doesn't play games).
Opened Blog Today
I opened my Blog today, Life of The Unexpected, in which I'll just talk a bit about my daily life that isn't too personal and my thoughts on things in the world. For my own privacy reasons, I'll be going by the name Dain. I am 6' 8", male, and I live at....YouDon'tNeedToKnowThisVille...
Anyways,I hope I get a few people, if not, at least I have a cache of ideas and thoughts on the web.
Anyways,I hope I get a few people, if not, at least I have a cache of ideas and thoughts on the web.
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